My mom calls me about 1 pm and tells me my stepdad is in the hospital. Renal failure? I dont know what to do. There's just so much of my life going on right now and it is really scary to have this happen. I cant deal. Seems like right when I get on solid ground (the ground was hardly "solid" but I was actually in a groove/happy/whatnot), something knocks me down. And I know I sound selfish. Because Im just talking about me, me, me but, on the other end, there's someone who is sick and not doing well. ANd I'm all worried about how this will affect MY life.
My parents dont have a will. So that's another scary thing. I dont know if the house is in my mom's name too or not. Or just my stepdad's. My grandmother died this past year, so I mentioned that we should probably set that up. Especially since my mother might not be on the house agreements and I am not technically adopted by my stepdad.
Im too scared to say the D word; it's easier to talk about wills. I hope thats not where this is going so soon. Eventually all things come to the D word though.
My stepdad and I were never the closest of close, but I want him to see me get married and have kids (hell, even I want to see that before I die) and all that jazz.
Ugh.
TOO MUCH.
I dont want to take this too seriously because I know I will just start bawling. I've already cried like two times talking about it today. With my mom (she's kind of a hypochondriac) you never know if something is serious or not. And, with my stepdad, he wont tell you if he's seriously hurt or not. I guess they do make sort of a match.
July 8, 2008
July 2, 2008
$175 mistake
while i was in new york, i just wasnt paying attention to my checking account. i typically never do. since im rollin in the dough and all (thats a total sarcasmic comment there). but i usually am not that tight with my finances where i have to watch my funds all motherly like.
WELL. i basically made 5 separate charges after my account went overdrawn.
5 times 35 = 175.
and it just effing sucks.
i could have totally prevented that by using the cash i had or not buying the stuff in the first place. UGH. i just make some stupid mistakes sometimes and its frustrating to deal with the consequences because the problem could have been easily prevented.
WELL. i basically made 5 separate charges after my account went overdrawn.
5 times 35 = 175.
and it just effing sucks.
i could have totally prevented that by using the cash i had or not buying the stuff in the first place. UGH. i just make some stupid mistakes sometimes and its frustrating to deal with the consequences because the problem could have been easily prevented.
July 1, 2008
few things i noticed about new york city
-the subway is hot. the actual trains are air-conditioned, but the underground part is not.
-new york is humid. seriously humid. i thought it was only humid at the equator but i was wrong. dead wrong.
-atlanta is black, white and mexican. we describe people as "minorities". in new york, its just diversity.
-there are a lot of tourists in nyc. and not just american tourists, but everywhere else tourists too. i met people from bulgaria, germany, france, italy, uk, lebanon, some other middle eastern country, a korean, and many other asians from god knows where. we had to see this one german couple 4 times over 2 days. we saw them on the subway, in battery park, in times square (like the next day), and i think we walked past them somewhere else too. walking on the street monday morning, new york city was almost a different experience because the tourists were diminished and the actual new yorkers came out of hiding.
-people in manhattan that panhandle have skills. so they play the guitar, dance, sing, or do all three at once.
-you walk a lot if you are in new york.
-the streets are filled with car honking. i dont think there's anything really worth honking at, but i think people just like to ... honk. they honk if someone doesnt go right when the light turns green, they honk when they are going through the green light because a pedestrian is crossing the street, they honk when the light is green but the person in front of them is turning right but they cant go because pedestrians are in the way, they honk for jesus, i dont really know. but they honk a lot.
-i only met one rude person in new york. the rest were nice and chatty :D (the rude person worked for the subway station. if you dont like people, then i highy suggest you dont work at a subway station behind the help desk. this doesnt seem like a hard concept to grasp, but whatever).
-new york city is big.
okay i had a great time in new york! i was on the subway a lot. every time i wasnt with dharmesh, i pretty much got lost, took the wrong train, took the right train but took it the wrong way, or just stood there with a confused look on my face. the subway in new york is really pretty compared to marta. the new york subway is metal looking and helvetica font is everywhere like woah. most of the stations have brick walls and its pretty clean. marta trains look like a 70s refrigerator and people dont really ride it. most of the time in new york city, i had to stand because there was no room.
oh, and my favorite part of new york city was standing on the empire state building, the met and the moma, and fuerza bruta. omg, fuerza bruta was awesome.
oh, and dharmesh was pretty funny. he walked in on a homeless guy when he had to go to the bathroom. and then when we were on top of the empire state buiding, he leaned back but i guess the concrete was farther away than he thought, then he got this look like he was free falling off the side of the building. i guess its incredibly funny when you see a friend think they are going to die.
oh, and DONT SPEND THE EXTRA 15/19 BUCKS TO GO TO THE TIP TOP OF THE EMPIRE STATE BUILDING. ITs so not worth it. You are higher, but you are surrounded by protective glass and its lame.
-new york is humid. seriously humid. i thought it was only humid at the equator but i was wrong. dead wrong.
-atlanta is black, white and mexican. we describe people as "minorities". in new york, its just diversity.
-there are a lot of tourists in nyc. and not just american tourists, but everywhere else tourists too. i met people from bulgaria, germany, france, italy, uk, lebanon, some other middle eastern country, a korean, and many other asians from god knows where. we had to see this one german couple 4 times over 2 days. we saw them on the subway, in battery park, in times square (like the next day), and i think we walked past them somewhere else too. walking on the street monday morning, new york city was almost a different experience because the tourists were diminished and the actual new yorkers came out of hiding.
-people in manhattan that panhandle have skills. so they play the guitar, dance, sing, or do all three at once.
-you walk a lot if you are in new york.
-the streets are filled with car honking. i dont think there's anything really worth honking at, but i think people just like to ... honk. they honk if someone doesnt go right when the light turns green, they honk when they are going through the green light because a pedestrian is crossing the street, they honk when the light is green but the person in front of them is turning right but they cant go because pedestrians are in the way, they honk for jesus, i dont really know. but they honk a lot.
-i only met one rude person in new york. the rest were nice and chatty :D (the rude person worked for the subway station. if you dont like people, then i highy suggest you dont work at a subway station behind the help desk. this doesnt seem like a hard concept to grasp, but whatever).
-new york city is big.
okay i had a great time in new york! i was on the subway a lot. every time i wasnt with dharmesh, i pretty much got lost, took the wrong train, took the right train but took it the wrong way, or just stood there with a confused look on my face. the subway in new york is really pretty compared to marta. the new york subway is metal looking and helvetica font is everywhere like woah. most of the stations have brick walls and its pretty clean. marta trains look like a 70s refrigerator and people dont really ride it. most of the time in new york city, i had to stand because there was no room.
oh, and my favorite part of new york city was standing on the empire state building, the met and the moma, and fuerza bruta. omg, fuerza bruta was awesome.
oh, and dharmesh was pretty funny. he walked in on a homeless guy when he had to go to the bathroom. and then when we were on top of the empire state buiding, he leaned back but i guess the concrete was farther away than he thought, then he got this look like he was free falling off the side of the building. i guess its incredibly funny when you see a friend think they are going to die.
oh, and DONT SPEND THE EXTRA 15/19 BUCKS TO GO TO THE TIP TOP OF THE EMPIRE STATE BUILDING. ITs so not worth it. You are higher, but you are surrounded by protective glass and its lame.
June 20, 2008
the difference between granular, powder, and noodles
at our company, we order various grain sizes of dry chemicals.
and the office secretary asked me, "whats the difference between them?"
so I, realizing she has no science background whatsoever, say, "well, powder is the consistency of blush. and granular is something like salt. and noodles are ... "
and she pipes in, "like rice?"
yeah, so i think we connected on that intellectual level.
and the office secretary asked me, "whats the difference between them?"
so I, realizing she has no science background whatsoever, say, "well, powder is the consistency of blush. and granular is something like salt. and noodles are ... "
and she pipes in, "like rice?"
yeah, so i think we connected on that intellectual level.
June 19, 2008
felt productive last night
it's amazing what you can do when you dont do nothing all day. (Dont do nothing? Yeah, thats what I meant).
So I get home close to 5pm.
530-640: ride around Scaryetta/Kennesaw Mountain. About 8 miles. See an asian who claims to have seen me ride on Cobb Parkway (which I dont do ever). Its a long story. Also saw some neighborhood kids. Emphasis on the 'hood. Did you ever take those quizzes asking how many 8 year olds could you take? I definitely lower my number to no more than 6. Have you ever seen six 8 year olds together? I felt like I was in middle school all over again with my helmet, perfect posture, and bike rack riding through their judgmental seedy little eyes.
[500-530: I was shaving my legs and bike prepping. I didnt think you needed to know all that. Thats why Im mentioning that you didnt need to know all that. But by mentioning that you didnt need to know all that, you end up knowing all that. Okay okay I'll do it: Now, a clever man would put the poison into his own goblet, because he would know that only a great fool would reach for what he was given. I am not a great fool, so I can clearly not choose the wine in front of you. But you must have known I was not a great fool, you would have counted on it, so I can clearly not choose the wine in front of me.]
640-700: Walk Zoey. And when I say "walk Zoey" I mean Zoey walked and I rode my bike with her leash in my hand.
700-705: Met crazy neighbor (think the crazy cat lady from the simpsons but with a dog). Her dog was all sniffing Zoey and not on a leash. And she asks me to grab her dog because her dog was much more interested in Zoey and not in the meat she was trying to get her with. I think her dog's name is something weird. Like Tika or Tutu.
705-720: Made some fake chicken with A1 sauce on it. And then I ate it.
720-920: Put some laundry in the washer. Watched MST3K: Mitchell. A mass wave of sleepiness washed over me.
920-930: Turned off the movie. Read some of Lucky Jim. Fell asleep on top of the covers with my lamp that-I-think-will-start-fires-if-I-ever-left-it-on on.
I also took a shower sometime after the bike ride and before the movie. Im pretty sure my times are accurate though. So I think my shower happened during a break in the space-time continuum.
PS. This blog could also be titled: why i woke up at 430 am in the morning. (who falls asleep before 10 pm these days? Oh. I do.)
So I get home close to 5pm.
530-640: ride around Scaryetta/Kennesaw Mountain. About 8 miles. See an asian who claims to have seen me ride on Cobb Parkway (which I dont do ever). Its a long story. Also saw some neighborhood kids. Emphasis on the 'hood. Did you ever take those quizzes asking how many 8 year olds could you take? I definitely lower my number to no more than 6. Have you ever seen six 8 year olds together? I felt like I was in middle school all over again with my helmet, perfect posture, and bike rack riding through their judgmental seedy little eyes.
[500-530: I was shaving my legs and bike prepping. I didnt think you needed to know all that. Thats why Im mentioning that you didnt need to know all that. But by mentioning that you didnt need to know all that, you end up knowing all that. Okay okay I'll do it: Now, a clever man would put the poison into his own goblet, because he would know that only a great fool would reach for what he was given. I am not a great fool, so I can clearly not choose the wine in front of you. But you must have known I was not a great fool, you would have counted on it, so I can clearly not choose the wine in front of me.]
640-700: Walk Zoey. And when I say "walk Zoey" I mean Zoey walked and I rode my bike with her leash in my hand.
700-705: Met crazy neighbor (think the crazy cat lady from the simpsons but with a dog). Her dog was all sniffing Zoey and not on a leash. And she asks me to grab her dog because her dog was much more interested in Zoey and not in the meat she was trying to get her with. I think her dog's name is something weird. Like Tika or Tutu.
705-720: Made some fake chicken with A1 sauce on it. And then I ate it.
720-920: Put some laundry in the washer. Watched MST3K: Mitchell. A mass wave of sleepiness washed over me.
920-930: Turned off the movie. Read some of Lucky Jim. Fell asleep on top of the covers with my lamp that-I-think-will-start-fires-if-I-ever-left-it-on on.
I also took a shower sometime after the bike ride and before the movie. Im pretty sure my times are accurate though. So I think my shower happened during a break in the space-time continuum.
PS. This blog could also be titled: why i woke up at 430 am in the morning. (who falls asleep before 10 pm these days? Oh. I do.)
June 18, 2008
Michael Jackson resides here
This black guy at work was asking for change [for the vending machine I presume].
So I say, "Change starts here, brother" and I pointed to his chest.
This is all.
So I say, "Change starts here, brother" and I pointed to his chest.
This is all.
June 17, 2008
Stuff to buy
Okay Im going to get a COSTCO membership.
And then I think I saw a $170 CoolPix AShton Kutcher digital camera there.
Good plan.
And then I think I saw a $170 CoolPix AShton Kutcher digital camera there.
Good plan.
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