AWWWW!!

This guy at work (who I kinda didnt want to talk to so I pretended to be busy) was like "whatcha up to this weekend?"

and I was like "nothing just going to be poor." (which is kinda true ... but not as bad as i made it seemed).
And he walks off.

A few minutes later he comes back and throws $40 on my desk. and he has less money than me it seems (or he's just as bad at handling it or something).

i tried to give it back to him bc i dont think i will need it.
and i kinda teared up because it was so nice of him.

im just like emotional or something because im trying to be a better person and i know i will lose all of my friends (or they'll make fun of me or ridicule me for attending church - im already hearing how "stupid" i am for going from one of them). and it hurts my feelings. i dont do that to them with their decisions. why to me? and then sbz is going to be moving to tx. im going to be friendless and alone and its going to suck.

see? im getting teary eyed again.
im a fragile soul.

randomosity

- i left the keys in the door for the second day in the row. this morning tim wakes me up and says, "hey i put your keys on the kitchen table. they were in the door." and then he was all smart ass and said that we didnt get robbed or anything.

- i walked zoey on the bike ... she tries to be the pack leader but cant when i ride the bike. 2 wheels are just faster than 4 legs.

- i'm watching american gangster. a few things:
some of the movie, denzel washington isnt even in america. he's in thailand. and then denzel doesnt play a good drug lord. like russell crowe and denzel should switch roles (except for that whole part where russell crowe is doing the lawyer-she says "eff me like a cop, dont eff me like a lawyer"-yeah, denzel washington doing that one scene? not so much). i'm sure there's a lot more deeper stuff to say about the drug war, good cop/bad cop, commercialization, community, etc. but yeah.

- i helped someone start up their car. they called me and i totally had no jumper cables. so i asked the mexicans across the street for (OKAY WOW DENZEL JUST SHOT SOMEONE IN THE HEAD!) some and he gave me one. the black lady next door was a little too old and i dont even think she knew what a car was. so i went to my friend, the victim of the not working battery, and she told me to turn OFF my working car while we attached them. and i thought you were supposed to keep the cars ON. so i call mick. and he talks us through the process. we hooked the plus up first (thats red for all you not in the know). and then my friend's jumper cable didnt have plastic on the part where you put your hands to squeeze the jumper cables. so we had 18 bazillion reassurances that it wouldnt eloctrocute us. and we touched the metal that was exposed on the jumper cables really fast to make the inevitable shock we were expecting quick and painless. thank god, no shocks. so we started up her car! 2 women of the 2000s! the worst part though had to be taking the unexposed jumper cable off ... bc it was charged up and all connected to the cars that were running. but we unhooked all the other 3 jumpers and got the guts to take the one without the rubber protective coating on the handle off. all while both cars were still running. we threw the jumpers on the grass so they could "ground" themselves. the person i had helped was a yoga buddy, so its not surprising that we felt the jumper cables had to ground themselves. okay i talked far too long about that.

(ooh denzel just said "the loudest one in the room is the weakest one in the room" bc he saw this snazzy dressed guy that is wearing pleather at a party. go denzel with your bad self.)

Service Shortcoming

So in Relief Society we were talking about service.

So they asked the "what are ways we can do service?"

And I raised my hand and said, "Well, we can keep our eyes open and look for opportunities."

Sensing everyone was totally unimpressed, I kept going.

"For example,"

(examples are always great because they are so relateable)

(relatable?)

(relate-able?)

"I was shopping last night"

(in WalMart - left that part out. reputation and whatnot.)

"and I saw this little kid"

(Mexican)

"saying 'papa?! papa!?!'. He was clearly lost."

(this is where it gets good because everyone was expecting me to say, "and I bought him an ice cream cone, found his dad and paid off their mortgage!")

"annnnnd I didnt help him. And that was an example of me being presented with an opportunity to serve but I failed."

(I kinda think it would have been funny if I went up to the kid and said, "SURVIVAL OF THE FITTEST GOOD LUCK FINDING YOUR PAPPPS!)

So the moral of my story for the weekend. Keep your eyes open for service opportunities.